A&B

Living in Nashville and traveling into the USA with Brock and Auny Gill has been awesome. I love it, i, loove, it. Magic shows, great message, great company. I feel lucky. i'm sooo greatful with God and also with Brock and Auny for bring me with them and allow me travel and live with them. Everything have been perfect. I'll not change anything in it. And i could say that I kind feel bad for everything they have give me since 4 years ago until now. I'm not sure if i deserve all this. This is so crazy. It's even hard to believe it.

The most amazing thing is when we are in the shows, I can feel Jesus in Brock's words. I can see Jesus in Aunys work.
Both work so hard every time. And all is for them. Everything is for the people behind the spot light. People that we sometimes don't even see, know, feel.
That's the most awesome, magical and exciting thing of all. Every time, in the show, when he speak and people stand up surrending them lives. I admire them work. It's so inspiring.
I can't leave a side the tricks. I love his show in general. I love it even i have seen it a lot of times now.

In all this crazy trip. I've been able to know great, amazing and loveley persons. I've made some good friends i'll like to keep forever. I've laugh too much, i've scream, i've cry, i've dance. Makes me sad the fact that i have no much time left, but it would make me sad also if i would stay more time. I love to be here, but i'm dying to see my man. If i can bring him with me that would be awesome. He is everything i need to make this perfect.

I'm so so so sooooooo greatful. I don't know how to express that feeling. I'm not a very comunicative or expresive person. But i feel like i have to buy an airplane to cover everything they have gave me.

Thank you Auny. Thank you Brock. I'm sooo greatful for everything. You are awesome. I love you. This is no doubt a magical trip i will never forget.

You choose

I've always thought that time is the most valuable thing in the world. You can't buy it even with all the money in the world. You can't sell it, you can't control it, you don't know how many you have ahead and ti can fall off of your hands as fast as a blink. It's invisible and present always, even we don't like it sometimes.

During our time, we are constantely making choices. We choose to get up at 9:05 or 9:06 or 10:00. We choose to take a shower or not. Brush your teeth or not. Put on the blue shirt or the purple one. Dress clasual, dress formal. Eat breakfast, skip breakfast. Take the car, take the bike. Speed or drive inside the limits. Every second, every second, every, second, of, our, lifes, we, are, making, choices.

For some, choices have no matter. But i wouldn't think that way. The difference between get up from the bed at 9:05 or 9:06 can worth your life.

We make that many choices, and most of them, we do it without thinking about it. Some of them we do it in automatic. I do choices in automatic. I wash my hands after go to the bathroom every time. It's an action i don't think, i just do it. But i don't realize that that choice affect my life. If i don't wash my hands, i can get an infection or get sick. If i get an infection or sick often my organism will resent it. And who knows, maybe i can get a disease or die about it. It's just a simple and automatic decition that affect my life completely and most of the times i don't realize it. We don't realize it. It can be anthing not just washing your hands.

I believe there's always a moment where our choices are in our hands before make the decition. It can be one year. Sometimes is a fraction of a second while you see a truck coming over you and turning to the right to avoid a crash. It's Amazing how our brain can think in a million options in less than a second. You can even think in the consequences of your options. You can made a life in that time. There's always a moment. And i believe that that moment. It's the moment most important in where we should spend more time in. We don't like to think about our decitions sometimes. We rather think or do funny things. But "If you are wise, your wisdom will reward you; if you are a mocker, you alone will suffer" (1) You can have the good choice, the bad choice, the revange choice, the most easy or the most dificult choice. All this paths in front of you, that leads you to a diferent destination every second. It is you, and only you, who will make that choice. But not only you who will suffer the concequences.

We have to be careful in what we are spending our time in. We need to spend more time in "that moment". And maybe you can find the Lord there. Wispering at your ear. Pay atention to Him. Be wise. Jesus is wisdome. Persue Him. Because of that fraction of a second can depend your entire life.

So, What's your choice now?

1.Prov9:12
"Your own conduct and actions have brought this upon you. This is your punishment. How bitter it is! How it pierces to the heart!" Jeremiah 4:18

today i discover i have no Faith

"I have testimony weightier than that of John. For the very work that the Father has given me to finish, and which I am doing, testifies that the Father has sent me. And the Father who sent me has himself testified concerning me. You have never heard his voice nor seen his form, nor does his word dwell in you, for you do not believe the one he sent. You diligently study the Scriptures because you think that by them you possess eternal life. These are the Scriptures that testify about me, yet you refuse to come to me to have life."(1)

Tonight we was talking about the old testament. How Jesus encourage us, and almost like a command, to scrutinize the scriptures. But He didn't say: Scrutinize this letter that John or Pedro or whoever wrote at that time. To Jesus, the old testament was "The scriptures" the 5 books of the bibile was "The Law" He knew Leviticus like the back of His hand. It was the most important book fo they entire bible.

I start months ago to read the bible since the begining, i'm hearing some bible studies, but for some reason, nothing make any sence, i'm struggling. I thought, well... God is so complex that i will never understand Him completely. That's for sure. And judging what He do... is like almost sayin: "I can be God, I will do it this other way and it would be better" Which is not what i'm trying to do. I'm trying to know Him and learn. But acting like that doesn't look like that's my purpose.

We are used to believe and do the things that we understand and are for our benefit. But that's not everything you need to do. That's easy. There's something beyond all that.

Tonight maybe accidentally i heard something that open my eyes. Auny said to Brock something like this: "If you have faith, you would believe without understanding or questioning. That was the faith in Jesus times, and it was stronger"

I've been looking an answer for all this struggle moments i've had. I was sure it would be something obvious that i've been missing, or some simple solution with one word. I was waiting for it literally for a little more than 2 weeks. And this is it. My answer is: FAITH.

I know the answer now. But that's not enought. And the hardest part is comming. To make FAITH a verb (i think that's how andy stanley would say it haha).

"But do not think I will accuse you before the Father. Your accuser is Moses, on whom your hopes are set. If you believed Moses, you would believe me, for he wrote about me. But since you do not believe what he wrote, how are you going to believe what I say?"(2)

1.John5:36-40
2.John5:45-47

The time is now!

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Go now!! Today is the last day!!

My addictions

I'm gonna confess you. I have some addictions. Actually, i have a lot... I accept it. They make me feel goood. They make me happy. And i almost do it every day.

I'm going to tell you my addictions right now.
The first one it makes me feel special, loved, secure, unique, incredible, it bring all my senses and feelings out. I call it: Alejandro. I love him. So much, very, a lot, plently, badly, hard, strong...

The second one gave me energy, it make me feel good and happy. I love it! Make my heart beat rises. It's call: exercise. From the hard one that make me sick and in the next day makes me sore until the soft one. I even enjoy a walk at the mall or outside in the nature. Love it!

The 3th one makes me act like CRAZY. And when i say crazy... believe me. Like crazy! It takes out my stress, it makes me forget everything and just enjoy it and do what i feel. I call it: Dance! And like there's no dance without music. Music is in this number too. Music makes me fly, makes me smile, makes me happy, makes me dance =)

The 4th one makes me feel good. Actually my organism thanks me for it. I am extremely, very, super addict to the healthy food. I like to eat what my body need. 1,300 Kcal. 150g carbs. 65g protein. 40g lipid. Complex carbs mostly. Good protein quality. Polyunsaturated lipid mostly. Eat frut and nuts for vitamines and minerals (yogurt with frut and nuts... mmmm love it). And drink only water.
more carbs = belly
more fat = watery
more carbs & fats= watery belly = not good
more protein = over work kidney = kidney disease probability = not good neither

The 5th one make me feel smart, useful and gives me satisfaction. This one i called: Learn. I love to learn, i like to learn something everyday. I want to know the story of the world. I want to know at least 5 lenguages. I want to study the whole bible verse by verse, Know Jesus and God the best I can, and follow Him. How can i follow someone i don't even know??

The 6th one make me smile, cry, scream, laugh, feel anger, disappointed, happy, sad, surprise etc etc... I like to do it with friends. And mostly with my boyfriend in the VIP room. It's called MOVIES!! cinema, go to the theater... whatever. I enjoy it soo much!

The 7th makes me feel useful, active, challenged and independent. It's called: Work. Most people don't like it. But i actually do. And i'm addict to it.

The 8th thing makes me feel alive, cultural, able to give opinions, makes me explore, take risks. This one is my addiction to try new things. Because how can i say something about anything without already try it?

The 9th one. I actually think i do this every day. It's the biggest one. It just make me feel gooood, relaxed, relief, active... But i have a feeling that we all have this addictions. The addictions of sleep and go to the bathroom...

And the 10th one. The last one, but not the less important. Actually i think is the most important than all of them. It's my addiction to help people. It's an inexplicable feeling. It's supreme. It's heavenly...

What's your addictions? I'll not say anyone, i promise.

LOVE

This have been "THE SUBJECT" since i get here. Everyone is looking for a date. Brock and Auny are worried for the wedding, partners and childrens of all of them friends. The question is. Are you dating? Who are you dating? When do you plan to get married? You are getting old. You mariageable age is going!! What are you gonna do about it?

Then we go to church and Andey Stanley is doing a serie about How to stay in love. For couples, husbands, etc... People are learning how to stay in love while figuring out a way to imply a guy that you like him. And start dating with him, get married, have childrens...

Love is the center of our lifes. Love is the main thing for everyone, always and forever. It is for me. Fortunately I have my prince charming. But, love is not only about a partner, about a husband, about a wedding and live happily ever after. Love is more. Love is a complex word with a million of aplications and meanings.

I think. In my personal opinion (it doesn't mean is correct). That the love to your partner is not the most important. Nor your own love. But to "Love one another"(1) (wich apply to your partner too, but not ONLY to your partner). We are so worried about a mate while judging revenging and making fun of everyone. And we maybe don't realize it or think about it. Or we don't care about it. Maybe we do. But we DON'T do anything about it.

What is to love each other? I don't have the correct answer, nor the best one. But i have my own opinion about it. As everybody else. That's why LOVE means so many things. Because what means to me, it can't mean to you. Or viseversa.

What i define as Love is: "Do to others what you would have them do to you"(2). As simpel as that. If you DON'T want to be judged, "Do not judge, or you too will be judged"(3). If you don't want people talk bad about you, make you feel less, criticized you, hurt you, ignored you, laugh at you, force you to do something and make decisions for you, etc etc.. Well what you have to do is: Don't talk bad about them, don't make other less, don't CRITICIZE them, don't hurt them, don't ignore them, don't laugh at them, don't force them and make decisions for them.

I like the last one spacially. Because some people play the mother role in others people lifes. And it's good, because there's some people who need that. But if you resolve the people lifes. If you don't let them fall. They will never know how to get up. They will lean in you instead of take the Lord hand. And one day you will not be there to help them to stand up.

Instead of give them a solution and maybe force them to do it, or wash them brain to believe is the best solution. I try to get the most information i can, so i can make my opinion, give an advise, and then i let them decide. Otherwise they will never be able to make a choice. You never know how things will turn. The decision you think is the best it might not be at the end a good one. And the decision you think is the worse it might work. I can't say something for sure. Even if i was in the same position once and solve the problem in some specific way.

I like to make my own decisions. I don't like going around blaming people for my decisions. It doesn't mean i don't take advices or opinions. I like to hear what people say, i'm always open for what people want me to say, i actually like it. However, listen to an advise it doesn't mean i have to do it. It can help me to make my choice. But at the end the decision and the risk is mine. When the time of my judgment at the end of my life arrives. I don't think is good to blame people for my actions in God precence. I'm an adult, responsible of my acts. No body is responsible of my acts but me. If i fail, it's my mistake. This race in the one we all are is long. And at the end is only with yourself.

An other thing. If I force someone to do something and it turns to be a bad choice... to me it looks like if the other person is not able to make decisions, and neather I... Which i think everyone who is normal, without a mental desease, can make decitions. Some people make bad decitions. But there's always a lesson after a fail. And it doesn't matter how smart and studied you are. We have to face the fact that we not always make good desisions. No one is absent.

Continuing the "Do to others what you would have them do to you"(2). There's the other face of the coin. Wich is: If you LIKE people to be nice with you, please you, listen to you, respect you, tell you the truth, support you, be loyal, happy, positive, available, give you presents, calls you, treat you like a queen or king, do whatever you want... i don't know, it can be plenty of things you expect and ask people do and give you. What we have to do, is to not expect or wait until the people give it to you so you can do it too. You have to give the first step, and YOU do it to them. How are you going to ask someone to do something you don't even do?

I'm a women of actions not of words. Actions speak louder than words. I've always thought, You are what you do and say, not what you say you think you are or what you want to be. It's a different "say". To say you are something and what you say in your normal life. It doesn't matter if you plan to do good things. People can't read your thoughts. The people see and hear. And that is what makes you.

So, this is my conclution: "But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you" because "If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that?(4)


1. John13:34
2. Matt7:12
3. Matt7:1
4. Matt5:44-47

The Mount Sinai

There had been a discover of a new place where everything matches with the Mount Sinai described in the Bible. There's a documentary explaining everything. It's soooooooooooooo good! It rise my heartbeats. If you haven't heard anything about it. You have to see it!!
Here is the link: Mount Sinai Documentary
It have 3 minutes of a promotional and then it have other 2 minutes of intro. You can start watching it in the 5th minute.